Everybody Has Different Dreams: Chapter 1
Part of Everybody Has Different Dreams by ready2serve
One time when i was just a very young pup, dreaming with my eyes wide open,i couldnt help but just sit speachless and stare at everything around me. I used that time to take in and create my own viewpoints of what was right and what was wrong. My names jamie james robert cohen and i've always felt that i had an imaginary collar around my neck, reguardless of if it was actually there or not. I sort of use to hate what i saw whenever i looked in a mirror, because i'm not like anyone else, well most people anyways. I did'nt chose this and i was'nt given the choice, the only option i have is to accept it and continue trying to be the BEST pup that i can be. All pups deserve to have a Master,a owner, and should be loved and guided in the right direction and that's always been my dream. I've always looked at myself like i'm man's best friend, but for some reason man always hurts me. With a loud woof and a puzzled face i just forget about it and move on to wander on my own. My attention span is'nt the greatest, but my heart tells me someday a worth while Master will come across me and will give me a treat, and a pat on my head for my honesty.
This is more then just a story, this is my real story. My real visions, my real emotions, my real intentions. I'm not sure what type of breed i am, but i'm a small, well built, loyal, dedicated, and obedient pup.I'm all alone and I had no choice but to build myself the best that i could. I've been designed to last even in the harshest of conditions, but what keeps me smiling and moving forward is the thoughts of finding a Master who loves me for me. I try and wag my tail and keep my head as high as i can as much as i can, even when times seem tough. Allthough i'm becoming a much stronger pup, the reason i'm so shy and quiet is because i'm still very afraid of being hurt both emotionally and physicly. I'm young, small and can easily be broken and taken advantage of, but i've always been able to sense other peoples intentions WOOF, i have an acceptionally good nose for that. I've been sniffing out and on the trail of finding myself a true Master for sometime now, and i found myself here out of all places, three thousand miles away from home.
I never liked to compete and that's not the purpose of me writing this, the purpose is to let anyone who cares to listen know that i exist, but sometimes i doubt anyone could ever be looking for me. I dont know or understand all to much about anything, i'm suprised i've lasted and made it this far. With no plot, no chapters, no destination, i walk with my head down out of submission and just trying to pick up the scent as to the direction where i should be heading. I was following a path for a long time and i ended up no where, i just found myself lost surrounded by nothing but fake friends that turned out to be bad influences.i have to force myself to leave everything i once knew & loved behind and i'm ok with that, because no one around here cares about me anyways. I've never met any other pups before, and most importantly i've never had a Master who cares about me and can truly bring out and modify my inner pup. I just rely on my instincts, and when i go to sleep i dream of rolling around in a dog park collared and owned, playing with other pups, my Master never to far away.
I dont want to win anything, i never really cared about money, all i care about is being happy, telling my real story and pleasing my Master. My Master that i dont have. I've been so unhappy for so long i cant help but write to try and make things right. I dont really stand a chance, i never have, but the pup inside me does. I've never once had my fortune told, probably because i make my own destiny but i wonder just where i might end up a year or two from this day today.
Perfection is something i'll forever aim towards, even though i've never really felt like i've accomplished it. Sometimes you have to take chances when there not given, but i gave myself these opportunities, the only other people who made this possible was everyone from Club Collared. I use to stand infront of doors of opportunities foolishly thinking one would open up for me, but none ever have so i decided to break down all these walls i built up that surround me, and create my own from scratch. My potentiol is often times neglected, my strengths usually overlooked, but i'm alot better then i was a few years ago, and even though i've always been forced to struggle i'll never stop fighting to improve thats a promise.
I've learned alot about myself during these past few months, and am begining to slowly make changes to finally try and get myself together, and to where i want to be in life, collared, on all 4's locked in chastity, at my Master's feet and every command. i would have said growing up, but i feel i'll probably always be a young pup at heart. Growing up for the most part i can confidently say i developed a little slower then everyone else my age, but i really just tried to spend as much time as i could not worrying about those types of things.
The time frame i figured out i was different was pretty young for me, i started getting filthy thoughts when i was about anywhere from ten years to twelve years old. At the time i did'nt know how to take it, or what i was really thinking about, i just knew that i was different, and that i liked it. During my middle school days i always wanted to be different,and i always wanted to do my own thing, so i took up smoking ciggarettes hoping i would look and be older then the other kids faster. Looking back i still wish i had'nt done that as i think smoking that young may have stunted my growth a little, but then i smile and tell myself good things come in small packages. I can be a confident little fucker sometimes, even though it's always been pretty easy for me to be one of the shyest pups possible.
All i really want is to do good and to be myself, to make good friends, to be a good friend, to make a positive impact on the world and those around me. Grow and become the best pup i can be, make my Master along with my parents proud to make myself proud, and to make other people smile more often. I'm a pretty random pup and i try my hardest not to fit into any boxes or labels, and if you get to know me i'm really just a good pup that's filled with lots of licks, lots of cuddles and lots of compliments. Finding my way all the way to Club Collared has really changed my life, because before finding my way here i never really knew how to open up to anyone, not even my parents. An insane amount of built up pressure feels lifted off my shoulders now a days, because i know, understand, and accept my place in life. My place in life is on all 4's collared on the end of my Master's leash, my number one focus on how to please him and be the best pup possible.
jamie james robert cohen